scream a little more..

Doing school work is one thing

Doing training or sales material is another

Then there's doing physical sales training

Then there's doing sales practically

That have not involve all those travelling i need to do

The engine is constantly running and running



all this is run not by fuel but by the mind, saying that i can do it and that i can achieve more

and i'm freaking preparing or doing all this during the weekend

darn it

When there's promotion, i'm the one that is working during the weekend

and when there's no promotion, i'll be working my ass off preparing work material

and when all this are done, i'll be spending my time doing my school work

and i always bitch about this

When everybody work.. i work

When everybody finish work.. i will be working

Before everybody start work.. i already in office doing preparation

When the weekend come and everybody is relaxing.. i'm working again

Then there's holiday where people are again relaxing while i'm working

yet they still bitch about not enough holiday or working too much

oh..

how about some hobby or alone time or some family time

i don't really have much time for it.. and when i do have that little time for myself

i just want to sit back, relax, sleep and have a quiet time...

when i say i put in 3-4 times of time and effort compare to my peers.. i freaking mean it and i hate this shit

If the end result is nothing but extraordinary, i have definitely fail in my life.. big time..

to put so many things on line and work my ass off

If life is in front of me.. i mean as a life being being tangible

i definitely without much question would have kick its ass so hard.. just to release my anger

like literally so hard i would have break my own hand just by punching it in its face..