december 31 2012

got woken up early today, saw the clock and its only 4 something, cant get a good sleep i guess

lots has been running through my mind

one thing for sure though, this time round, i'm not telling a single soul what i think nor what took place

i dont really want to listen to any so call "advises" , "comments" , "opinions" , "judgements" , "feedbacks" on me or on her. I believe whatever took place is quite private. Its a bit devastating to me. The hammer hits even harder when i work hard to achieve something only to realize that one other half don't really know what i'm working hard for. Miscommunication?? mis-interpret i would rather put it

even my parents ask

im not saying anything

and all of a sudden my mom came and go off saying i should start a family sooner to avoid much problem

i did not reply for i knew she wont understand

did i said no?? why is she even judging me on this?? silly people

at this junction of life, having study, experience and endure a certain level of exposure, i am very sure i know what i'm doing.

and you know what the funny part is??

even though after listening to what i say, people still go back to what they think

silly people

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I am a person who knows what i'm doing

when i say i listen, it does not mean i need somebody to change my mind or opinion

i just want to listen a different perspective

i got a statement the other day and it goes like this "i have been working with you for the past 4 years and i realize you do have high tolerance level. If a person can make you go crazy, that person must really know how to push your buttons"

i replied "knowing someone so much, sometimes could back fired"

He replied "exactly, and the worst part is even though she knew what pisses you off. She still do it. Is she looking for a fight??"

i stay silent for a while and replied "sometimes a lady just want some attention, i just got really mad that she has to use this way to get my attention. There are many many ways to do it"

he goes off by telling me some of his stories and philosophy

actually what this person is saying, i already knew. However by listening from another party, you get a different perspective at times

i did not unveil my whole situation, but rather reminding of who i am.

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In god i trust

let the whole world go against me

everybody just like to act smart pretending they know everything afterall

they are the judge, they are the critics, they are everything